I love me some anavar at 50mg a day. That is a really good dosage, and I highly recommend you go with it for 8 weeks. That will give you the best benefits from it.
GHRP-6 is 1 of the top peptides out there you'll definitely get some good gains but I wouldn't say you get fast gains on it maybe increase the dose to 500 mcg a day and try it
Do not exceed 8 weeks on Winstrol and honestly I would stick to 6 weeks on any oral. If you're going to add it to the cycle it wouldn't be a bad idea to kickstart since equipoise has a slow ester.
You can do push ups from home anytime you want to make it more challenging, start adding weights to your back. Once you start improving on that, trust me you'll get stronger.
Lpinned i'm glad you are being open about this stuff. It's going to help a lot of people out there going through the same thing. I'm glad you're not giving up on life.