I’m glad you pulled though it bro. Like is not about what happens to you it’s about how you act when you’re back is against the wall and you are at rock bottom and how you pull yourself back up and keep fighting., I'm proud of you, bro. For being open about your prior issues.
When my wife divorced me, I hit rock bottom, I really contemplated suicide as well. But I was able to get things back going in the right direction. And met my future wife.