BBKingpin
Newbie
No I haven’t done gear since 2009. I trashed everything, like $3-4k in gear I had in a shoe box. I remember tearing right tricep and losing a lot of strength in 2008 and wonder if it was due to stronger muscle than joints and due to gear. Just hitting a heavy bag in my basement focusing on overhand right until I tore tricep in freak accident. I tested my testosterone at age 49 in 2020-21 for first time and it was 713. I didn’t know what that meant but my doctor of 25 years asked me if I was taking testosterone. I replied no I was wondering if I should. It was due to low libido. But low libido was due to Kratom. I started taking tramadol in 2016 from pain in knees and hip from heavy squats. Then when I tried to quit tramadol it was typical opiate withdrawal like restless legs and insomnia. Then I found Kratom which was strong as hydrocodone
Which I had quit in 2007 cold turkey white knuckling. Didn’t know about withdrawal in 2007 until I felt it and had to deal with it. The less we know the stronger we are about quitting. Like my dogs just tough everything out and don’t worry about tapering or withdrawal. Time heals everything. But no I never took TRT. I never blasted and cruised. I just always followed the conventional wisdom of 8-12 weeks cycles and PCT in between. But I would add HMG to HCG even back then in 2008 when it became more known. I used to have a huge back but laid off back exercises to keep bodyweight under 200 when I was trying to get back into boxing. I basically got have good quads and decent arms and when I finally devoted to abs on consistent basis (just 8 minute abs level 2 maybe 2-3 times per week), I had decent build without any gear. Just creatine. I’ve found l-leucine works but is pain to mix, unlike creatine. The one thing that having money (therefore options), and after second minimally invasive hip replacement on other hip, led me to was band training with X3. I was able to get up to the orange Elite band with front squats. But I’ve seen some guys who are obviously gear enhanced able to do more than orange elite band like elite band with another smaller band. Now X3 inventor has a belt for split squats so you’re alternating one leg at a time but pulling from floor with variable resistance band instead of pushing up with a static weight with bar on back.
The only gear I’ve done since 2009 was recently I got some IP anavar 50 mg but only did 21 days after I ran out of RU-58841. So I’ve got 31 days or 31 pills of 50mg remaining and 2 bottles of RU-58841 from chemyo (50 ml) waiting in my mailbox. The only thing I should probably wait to receive before taking anavar at 50mg is Atorvastatin and ezetimibe. I read and do my own research like others and found study about combining the two and it improves cholesterol profile that anavar/oxandrolone alone destroys. I recall posting on elitefitness or outlawmuscle back in 2006-09 about doing anavar only and same doctor who did my test in 2020 tested my blood while on anavar and my good cholesterol was low and bad cholesterol was high. So I quit the anavar. So lots of UG and vet gear anavar was in the trash when I threw everything away in 2009. I threw away 60 or 80 ml of Primobolan, including 20 ml from Turkey which was Schering and a guy in Llewellyns forum said that’s definitely real and legit. Honestly when I threw all that gear away I felt like a demon left me. I was traveling to CA after divorce and had only so much money and was going to sell what I had in shoe box in back of trailer to help with survival until I found job. Then I recalled it said in Bible (which I had been reading since 2007 revelation and 2008 getting baptized at a “mega church” called Harvest in Niles, IL) that “temptation must come but woe to the one who tempts.” So I was afraid I would be tempting someone in CA if I tried to sell gear so I threw it all in a trash can at a rest stop along interstate. But I had already sold some to bro on OLM named Valetudo8080 who happened to live in Schaumburg IL near me. I sold him HGH red tops which he confirmed were legit and had side effects of arm numbness (carpal tunnel and edema or swollen fingers from water retention). I forgot to mention after I tore tricep and was healing and started to pray then fantasize about another cycle and perfect physique and I decided to do another cycle I felt tricep tearing and got scared and prayed again and then decided not to do it so I went to google and searched “steroids are a sin?” And this website musclemissions.org popped up. You can only find it on internet archaeology now or Wayback machine from maybe 2009 snapshot. Now, I don’t know if GOD said it’s okay to do another cycle because it’s not a sin or so that I would go preach to my old friends on the boards. I did kinda disappear after 2009 and didn’t expect to be remembered by anyone. Do you remember me or just saw me say I am old school? I made a video about this. Also when I had chunk of cash in 2016, unlike in 2002, I paid $10,000 to the protege of the pioneer of Megasession follicular unit hair transplant to restore the hairline that was eroded from gear over 20 years of cycling. That’s another reason it’s easy to stay off gear, no worry with hair loss or gyno. The good thing about x3 is its bands and not weights and you won’t have the same psychological issues with diminished strength that working out with weights surrounded by gym bros will cause when you go off gear - whether it’s in between cycles or for good. In 2009 after I threw the gear away on the interstate I did write a book about bodybuilding in 2010 but didn’t self publish until 2014. I called it Body Bible. https://a.co/d/cC58zLJ I made condensed version called Be Transformed. https://a.co/d/iaYGcTj Both by John Smith, my name. Then after I published it and wanted reviews Amazon told me to go to forum called the Vine where Amazon reviewers congregate like we used to congregate on elitefitness and OLM and other forums like anabolex and PM and these people on The Vine start flaming me, buncha fat cunts who write BS reviews on Amazon to get free junk (cheap electronic knockoffs) from China manufacturers started flaming me and I wasn’t mature enough Christian at the time, I didn’t “turn the other cheek” and told them they were a bunch of losers. (One guy started saying he was a Catholic and did that mean he didn’t apply - amazing how a Catholic seemed to imply he knew he wasn’t a Christian like a born again believer - I was a “Catholic” before divine revelation on July 1, 2007, then baptism on June 7, 2008. But I am usually too precise and intelligent and hit them where it hurts and always prompt a retaliation, which is not good. (Although one or two of the guys said they were on the floor laughing out loud because what I was saying was true and they felt the same way but held back to coexist among their “peers”). I think he was a younger intelligent Chinese guy, somehow I recall. But Immediately someone wrote a false review of my book and about 20 flying monkeys marked that they found it helpful and my book had one star before I sold a single copy. (Smear campaigns of malignant narcissists and their flying monkeys.). Then one of those losers said self published books usually suck and like divine justice I got 2 legit reviews 5 stars and 4 stars (probably 4 stars instead of 5 after seeing 1 star false review) because I had paid for some Amazon ads which led some people to buy it.
So after someone said self published books usually suck I could rub that in the face of these reviewers on Amazon The Vine. I was planning to sue Amazon because they wouldn’t help me after pointing me to The Vine but i did not sue Amazon. I even later saw a big article in a major newspaper like Philadelphia Inquirer or Chicago Tribune Sunday section or something similar about “the shadowy world of the Amazon reviewers on The Vine.” But almost a full year of work on book got shelved after they made it difficult with that one star review. I would try a promotion on Amazon using giveaways or countdowns and noticed the stats before and after the false review and got disheartened and just gave it up. I couldn’t even give it away hardly after some POS liar smeered my product because he didn’t like the way I spoke to him after I didn’t like the way he or she spoke to me. If you guys want to buy the book, it’s only $5.99 on Kindle and I decided I would use all the profits to fund a political party called the Truth Party which - no BS! - GOD told me to found. Basic premise is all candidates have to be baptized as adults (like I did in 2008) and obey all of Christ’s commands, which I painstakingly wrote down then categorized in maybe 2014-15. Also, all Donations or donors must be anonymous, so no special favors. No lobbyists. I have to self publish that little handbook. One other thing that happened was from 2023-24 I was traveling and wasn’t working so did DoorDash to survive but it was fun with my 2 dogs in car and the radio and in CA they pay you extra $300 per week if you put in the hours. What I found was Americans are very kind and generous people. I don’t really have any confidence issues since I’ve dealt with all the insecurities over the years. One of the commands of Christ is serve GOD, not money and seek first the Kingdom of GOD then all your needs will be provided by GOD. The only thing in this day and age you need is money for a good physician if you need some gyno removed or fat suctioned in same spot. They have FUT and SMP for almost imperceptible hair line restoration. You can add 2” to your penis with traction device so some size queen can’t try to shame you even though most guys are average but porn stars are like 1 in 10,000. I just figured my legs are good so I focused on legs and abs. And lagging body parts like chest just grow slower. I recently found photo of turn of the century boxer who could not have done steroids and noticed similarities in my physique. Muscular legs and lean abs back when people were still riding horses and taking locomotives instead of cars and airplanes. Check out my YouTube channel since it’s never been monetized. I won’t make money so there’s no reason to question my motives. Ourinvisibleenemies7779 (our invisible enemies 7779). You can check out website too on Wayback machine or internet archaeology. It was taken down when I forgot to pay the hosting company just because I forgot they sent invoices to an old email I wasn’t checking and I have not tried to retrieve the files I created using Weebly website builder.
